............................ successful failure

right when i thought going to stay at someones house was a good idea, i realized their pretty fucked up too.

I absolutely hate when you think your day was good and nothing could bring it down, and then out of nowhere your mind locks up on you and changes that all within a matter of five minutes. I have nothing to be upset about. I have no reason to feel the way I do because if I’m being completely honest, I am spoiled and have more than enough to make me happy in my life. and yet, out of nowhere I just want to cry and curl up in a ball and go to sleep and never wake up. I know it sounds pathetic and tomorrow when I see this I will roll my eyes at myself and mock how idiotic this seemed but for now I just want to get it out there and out of my mind. and of course, then I realize no one will read this and no one really cares. -.- funny how I post this anyhow…

Time for me to go downstairs, and put on a fake smile, i don’t like questions.

Is anything actually worth it

i feel sick like im gonna puke, but i haven’t eaten all day.

I cut myself tonight

I feel bad when I say ‘I want to die’ b/c I took someone else’s chance to live when I was born. I will live for them :) and always keep going.